knowing

I was almost frantic to have that ultrasound… I’m not sure why, exactly…

But when Noodle was sick in the night before my appointment I was really REALLY upset that I might not be able to go in. And it wasn’t that I was determined to have a girl, I’m SO okay with having another boy.

Once they told me it was a boy, I got such a strong feeling about me… and then I knew why it had been such a big deal… Until now, this has been a “pregnancy”, “sickness” and a “disruption” to my normal life. But after seeing the baby on the screen, watching his strong little beating heart and hearing that it was a boy, suddenly I knew… this is now no longer a “pregnancy” but a baby, a person, a precious new little boy with all his fingers and toes and a healthy heart… and I just couldn’t be any happier!!

We got the 4D ultrasound and here’s a snippet from the video: