Tomorrow (Thursday) I have my monthly prenatal appointment. I have to admit, I’m a little anxious. 18 weeks and still no movement, I can’t get a heartbeat on my home doppler, and I haven’t really expanded much lately. I can still button my jeans… at 18 weeks! I’ve been way larger at this stage in my other pregnancies and this is my 4th! So I’m trying not to be too apprehensive… there’s probably a good explanation for everything. Anterior placenta like last time can delay the feeling of fetal movement, my home doppler probably just sucks, and I’m probably just carrying different this time (maybe girl?!).
And yet, something deep inside me wonders… “what if…?” I feel like God has been trying to tell me something this week. A few fires I needed to walk through, a few lessons learned, preparing me for something bigger? Maybe not. But I’ve had this peace lately that IF this child was born with a deformity or handicap? It would be ok. God is my Father and he’ll be here to help me through anything that comes my way.
So God? Your will be done here, be near me tomorrow, now matter what the outcome is… I trust it all to you…
And friends? I may need a few extra prayers…
8 responses:
I will keep you in my prayers Margi. Hope all is well... :)
Sending hugs from India!
praying that God will be with you whatever...love you guys... Lance & Shari
I'll pray too. Love you
I'm praying for you, sweet friend~ I'm anxious to hear how everything is~ Love ya sister!
O my I will pray too.. let us know how it goes...
hey Margi I will be praying for you! love you sis .. suzyQ
...praying for calmness today and good news tomorrow...
i'm really wondering how the appt went...hope to be hearing soon...and yes i'm coming outta the closet and have to admit i've been visiting your blog and have enjoyed it! take care...
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